Radiation is going well and starting to take it’s toll. It’s a lot better than chemo, but I’m definitely starting to feel the fatigue/weakness combined with some aching and a sore throat. Every day when I lay down on the treatment table, the Holy Spirit brings 2 Corinthians 4-5 to mind (which I wrote more about in this post.)
God refers to our earthly body as a tabernacle—or a tent—a temporary dwelling place, not designed to last long (like the one in the photo above.) He explains in 2 Corinthians 5 that one day this “tent” will be taken down and we will receive a building of God, not made with hands, eternal. In contrast to a tent, our new bodies in Heaven are compared to a building—an eternal, incorruptible body waiting to be occupied. What an awesome promise!
As treatment begins each day, the technicians line me up and fasten on my mask. Then I stretch my arms behind my head and and lay immobile. The room is quiet. Technicians have left. It’s just me and the Lord, and a a large machine. For some reason, it’s a very vulnerable feeling. It’s in that moment that I return to 2 Corinthians 5 and begin talking to the Lord about my tent. It goes something like this.
“Ok, Lord… here we are again. This 42-year-old tent is yours. You allowed it to become sick. You have allowed it to be weakened over the past 8 months. You have healed it by poisoning it. And now you’re ordaining that it be radiated. I’m just the renter—the temporary occupant. You’re the owner, and you’ve already created a better body for me—I look forward to occupying it someday. So for now, you just do with this tent whatever you desire. I know this radiation will make me tired. I know it is doing both damage as well as some good. Use it to kill whatever cancer remains. But most of all, just use it for your purposes. If you want to zap it with radiation, it’s all yours.”
By the time that prayer is done, so is the teatment. The therapists return to the room, loose my shackles, and send me on my way until tomorrow.
Having a tent—a temporary body—is sometimes a hassle. Paul explained that “in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed upon with our house which is from Heaven.” In other words, the problems of being in an earthly body cause us to groan with desire for a better one—a perfect one! How true. I’ve done a lot of groaning over the past eight months. But it’s not “bad attitude groaning”—it’s more or less anticipatory groaning.
So, whatever your trial or physical hardship, if you know Christ, you have a better body waiting. You’ll do some groaning in this earthly body, but as you do, don’t lose sight of God’s purposes and promises. Yield your tent once again to God and let Him accomplish His will in your life. He’s already promised that your new, perfect, and eternal body is ready and waiting! I wish I could have mine delivered to my home tomorrow!